I often seek out strains that will uplift me, relieve me of anxiety and/or depression, and give me time to relax, smile, and have a laugh with my wife. I've had strains in the past impact me in negative ways but this one took the cake. I bought it because it was recommended by many sites as a great reliever of anxiety and depression--but instead, it GAVE me those things. I didn't even smoke a whole joint, my wife and I shared, and I was noticeably blazed fairly quickly. That feeling wouldn't traditionally be an unwelcome feeling but what came with it was what I could only describe as debilitating and unpleasant. I began getting paranoid about my physical body; heart racing, wondering whether I was remembering to breathe, feeling nauseous. Then I got paranoid about my life; all I could think about was pain and death. I struggle with bouts of anxiety and depression but I have NEVER been a suicidal person... this high made me so paranoid about how painful and awful life was that all I could think about was how death would be a gift. I then started questioning my faith and my very existence in this world... After being uncomfortably high for quite some time, I slept it off. Unfortunately, the damage didn't end when the high ended. I am not kidding, this one high triggered the worst depressive episode of my life. I didn't consume cannabis for quite some time after this experience bc of how awful it was, but the thoughts I had while high from this strain stuck with me for MONTHS. I had what I can only call an existential crisis. I questioned my faith, my existence, my self-worth, I went through a period of total uncharacteristic apathy where I didn't care about anything at all and even stopped doing the things I loved and lied in bed for most of the day. I had been having a bit of a rough time before, but after smoking this strain that ONE time, the thoughts it triggered left me in shambles. If anyone reading this is concerned, I'm fine! The last several months I've managed to begin crawling out of this depressive episode and I'm returning to being myself again! I've occasionally started consuming cannabis in small quantities again but am doing so VERY carefully. I urge anyone who is struggling with mental health issues to listen seek professional guidance and/or at least tell a loved one how you are feeling. If you use cannabis as a medicinal way to cope, do it with caution and pay attention to your mind and body and take notes on how certain strains, terpenes, etc interact with you. And if you're reading this as you are currently struggling, then please remember, you are loved, you are beautiful, you are worthy, and I believe in you! We need you, I'm so glad you're still here with us. Much love <3